Here and Now

God. Is. Good. What else is there to say? I think every day recently I have been brought to tears by this amazing fact. It is something we say so often, that God is good. But to sit and just dwell on the GOODNESS... wow, it WILL bring you to tears.

This past week my thoughts have been completely occupied with my "calling" and God's plan for my life. God has been moving mightily and has given me an over abundance of grace and sometimes it can seem incredibly overwhelming. So overwhelming to the point where it can be difficult to think clearly. Have you ever been there? Where God is so OVERWHELMING, that you are.... overwhelmed? I hope you have, because it is a beautiful place to be.
While I was in my overwhelmed state on what God would do in the FUTURE, I was not being 100% present in today (or yesterday, or the day before yesterday, or whatever day it was at the time).
I am reading a book called "forgotten God". It is about the church's neglect of the Holy Spirit, and while I am not talking about THAT can of worms, I was so convicted by so many things I read. While thinking about how amazing God is, and what He is doing in MY life and with MY calling-- I was neglecting the true call of the Holy Spirit. I have been placing way too much emphasis on my "calling". My calling is RIGHT HERE and my calling is RIGHT NOW. It is my job, and who I say hello to. My calling is my boss and my doorman. My calling is my connect group and my prayer time and who I meet with for coffee-- literally every person I run across. And any other way God ALLOWS me to be used in the future is completely up to Him. It is a privilege to serve our King, and He certainly did not do it from a platform, so what makes us think that we deserve one?

Nehemiah BEGGED God to use him. He begged to be used. I want that to be my prayer when I wake up every morning. "God, I BEG you to use me today. Please dont let me go through a day without making a difference for you."